Man, this sux...
2003-11-03 at 10:31 p.m.

I don't know how I'm supposed to feel right now. I'm hurt and confused among other emotions. Funny thing is, I'm good at hiding them...so people don't know what I am thinking or feeling.

I kinda sat there at lunch, just hoping to die. Especially when Marty reveals he likes your best college friend. Where was a knife to slit my wrists when I needed one. I feel like everything is crashing and burning right before my eyes and there's nothing I can do about it.

I'm not gorgeous and I lack every bit of self confidence possible...and you wonder why. Every guy I wind up liking does not like me and there is never a reason. I just wanna cry forever...

Backstreet hugs & Howie kisses,

@->--

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