Hey there diary readers. I realize that my absence was not long, but I have been needing to write in my diary. It's been a desperate cry for help. I am looking around to make sure my nosey family doesn't read.

Well, life keeps getting worse for Kimerella. Do you know what freedom is? It's something so very much lack. I'm 19 and I have massive anxiety of the outside world. Why is that, you ask? Well, it's because I have overprotective parents. May I define clearer with examples?

1) When I want to go shopping with friends at the mall 10 minutes from my house, a parent has to come with. It's embarassing.

2) My parents always tell me I can't go out, so basically I'm home a great deal of the time. In the 6 weeks I just had off from school, I hung out an entire 2 days. I only went out to go to work. Scary, huh?

Well, it gets 20x worse than that. I was supposed to go to see WWE RAW on March 15, which happens to be during spring break. I've never been to wrestling events before and I was excited to go. Unfortunately, I couldn't just push aside months of planning for spring break and I had to follow through on what I've been working on.

My plans were to go down to Florida and stay with my grandmother for a week. I have planned where I'd like to go while I'm there, what to buy to get ready to go, etc. For Wrestling, it was supposed to be Marty, me, my brother, and Marty's best friend Phil. I was excited, cause hey, I had a blast with Marty at the NJ Devils game back in October.

So, last night was do or die. I had to take all the plans I prepared for Spring Break and present them to my father. Lemme just say, that went not so well. My father is such a baby when it comes to me wanting my freedom for the first time in 19 years. The entire time, he wouldn't look at me. Way to give your kid confidence. So he didn't give me an answer.

So when Marty asked me if I was going, I told him no. I feel miserable now. Cause I didn't get an answer about Florida YET, and I now CAN'T go to wrestling. Yes, I am kicking myself about it.

So what happens if I DON'T go to Florida? Well, I'll be stuck working and being bored to death. I'm going to miss wrestling. I do have the mind to just leave home for good. My mom realizes that and she is trying to make sure I don't resort to just leaving and never coming back. FYI: I've wanted to do that ever since I moved to where I am now.

Today when I got home from work, I found out that my father said, if I go to Florida for Spring Break, then my father is cancelling our family vacation. I knew that was gonna happen. Now I feel guilty and I have to give up my hopes and dreams cause my father is being a jerk. Either that or they are going on a family vacation and I'm not allowed to come.

That screams major cause to run away from home.

For years, I've sacrificed my happiness to make sure everyone is taken care of. Now that I have aspirations of having some freedom, I am being forced to give it up so my family doesn't hate me.

I have to now sit here and think of how to get outta here.

This life of Kimerella is just hard to contend with. When I prayed to God to live the Cinderella life, I should've really thought about it before I did it. Anyway...I'll let you all know if I get to spend Spring Break the way I want to.

Prince Howie kisses,

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Princess Kimerella

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