I know I am supposed to be on hiatus, but I found it important that I get on here tonight.

My very close friend Marty and I were talking online and he said something that just made me cry. I unfortunately closed the screen without saving it but I will tell you what he said to me, of course not exactly word for word, probably some stuff left out:

"While I was driving back to school, I was crying because of you. Yes, you. And I'll explain why. While I was driving, I was listening to 1010 WINS and they were talking about how these two kids were killed and their parents had to bury them. It made me think of you and how you say you want to commit suicide. And then I started day dreaming and I thought it was real. I dreamt I was walking into the student center and Jackie ran up to me and held on to me, crying. After she told me what happened, I couldn't stop. I was crying so much. Tom O'Boyle had to call the nurse because I was hyperventilating. I also dreamt it was the day of the funeral and Jackie was making me go to the funeral but I didn't want to go because I was just so upset. The funny part was that Jackie tied me up in the car and dragged me to the funeral. But it got worse because I had to see your mom bury you. And I was yelling at you, but you couldn't hear. Because I wanted to know why you did it. I was crying the whole car ride to school, wondering why you killed yourself."

You know, ever since he told me this I have been thinking alot and crying...alot. Well, I appologized to him that I ever made him feel that way. Anyway, I am gonna try to write, but if I have a lot of school work...then I can't write.

Prince Howie kisses,

@->--

Princess Kimerella

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