I think today was the toughest day of the semester because I had to say goodbye to my friends. Some of them are graduating and going on to bigger and better things. My other friends are going back home for the summer. Some of them I'll be hanging out with, others I won't see until September.

The person I am going to miss the most is my boyfriend Marty. He dorms, I don't. I only live 10 minutes from the school and he lives like 45 minutes in the other direction from the school. I miss him terribly. Him and I cried together in his dorm before I left. I didn't want to let go of him and I certainly didn't want today to end. It kills me to see him cry, but I am very much fortunate to be there when he did cry. It's the first time we ever cried together. It's a horrible realization when you have to say goodbye for a long period of time. I cried so much today. I played "The Way" by Clay Aiken on the way home. I started to cry, but was also hiding it from my mother. She will never understand.

So four months exactly until school starts up again. *SIGH* I think the only good thing about being out of school is no homework. I hate homework because it stresses me out and leaves me little time for friends.

Marty bought me two "going away" presents. One he gave me last night which was a microphone for my computer so I can talk to him over the computer and he can talk to me. I appreciate this gift very much, though it wasn't necessary to be spending money on me. I would love to hear his voice everyday if I could. Today he gave me my second gift. Again, it wasn't necessary for him to spend money on me. He bought me a Cinderella doll and I love it. I look at it and smile because I am Marty's princess. Unfortunately, since I had very little time and no transportation to the mall to get him something, all I could give him was the poem I wrote. I feel he went all out on me and I couldn't really give much in return.

Anyway, I better get to sleep, but I just wanted to leave Marty this little message...It's from one of my favorite Backstreet Boys songs (It's Gotta Be You)

"Now I know why I was born, You feel my feelings one by one, Can't see the world I'm walking through, Cause baby I see only you..."

I am so happy to be blessed with your kindness, care and so much more. Remember that absence makes the heart grow fonder because when we see each other again, I'm going to hold you in my arms and give you the biggest hugs and kisses...and I'll throw some cookies in there. Sleep peacefully honey and remember that I'm out there thinking of you and missing you.

@->--,

Princess Kimerella

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